I Can't Help But Think ...

That I would have been 32 weeks now.

I know I should delete the applications, but I like to remember.

I'm not upset, I'm over that stage now. But I just feel something I had is missing.

Il7amdillah 3ela kil 7al.





A very personal post. I wanted to stop those.
But who cares ?



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Take It Easy

Yes, this blog is still alive. Barely.

Since the storm that is Twitter has taken over Kuwait, my identity has become more than known. To close & distant relatives, to friends and work colleagues. So there's not much I can say here on a personal level without giving away too many details.

I thought of joining the band wagon and turning my blog into one of those review/advertisement blogs but I think there's already too many of those around. Not that there's anything wrong with that.

Anyway, if there's anyone still reading my blog, I have a problem and I need your help.

Lately, I cannot seem to relax. I'm always running around doing a million things at one time with another million and one things on my mind. I feel like everyday I have more and more never ending things to do. I don't have time to sit down and organise my own room which is driving me nuts.

This has been going on since the last 2 years and slowly building up to my current state. Now I'm extra anxious and on edge and which has been making me forget things. Which frustrates me even more.

So ??

Any tips ?
Any websites ?
Books ?
Videos I can watch ?

Anything..

I just want to relax.


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Beauty Lies Within, Or Not ?

I spend ridiculous amounts of money on the most expensive beauty products available.

You name it, from anti-aging to whitening, anti-stress, caviars, serums, emulsions, masks and exfoliants by the dozen.

I try my best to use them religiously.

But the simplest, cheapest or actually free things I don't do. Like what ?

Like drinking enough water and sleeping early.

Sound familiar ?

I'm sure we're all guilty of this.

So tell me girls, what is the beauty secret or product you swear by?





*this is me trying to blogging again :p
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52 Degrees Invite

So excited !!!
Love the design.

Nail Polish Post !

As soon as I saw a picture of this seasons Chanel nail polish "Les Khakis" which was released this September I went crazy. I especially loved the greenish one.

So, I was shopping in Boots Avenues when I spotted Pupa's latest nail polish collection. So I guess for a similar, cheaper and AVAILABLE substitute, you can try Pupa. Unfortunately, I already had polish on so I couldn't try the shades. I will do next time though.

Iphone 4 FINALLY !

I've been waiting for the white iphone 4G since the black one came out. But today I blew a fuse and said that's it I'm not waiting anymore, I'm getting it today. Thanks to Sul6ana I remembered her post about Blink the online site. I ordered and chose express delivery and received it after about 2 hours. So thank you Blink for your timely delivery.

Their website:
http://www.blink.com.kw/
Tel:  +965 22654433
Fax: +965 22643899
Email: info@blink.com.kw

29-45, Ground Floor,
Lolouat Ibne Khaldoun Complex,
Ibne Khaldoun Street,
Hawalli,
Kuwait

Opening Times:
(Saturday to Thursday from 09.00 AM - 3.30 PM  and  from 08.00 PM - 11.00 PM)
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Where Is Your Motivation Kuwait?

Where did we lose our motivation?
We as a nation, have lost it one by one. Like a disease.

I look at my BBM list, my Whatsapp list, my Facebook, my Twitter and there are endless status's along the lines of:

Back to work :(
I hate work
I don't want to go to work tomorrow
Etc etc

Is there anyone left who enjoys what they do?
Is there anyone out there doing the job of there dreams?

I'm not only talking about the hundreds of Kuwaiti's with government desk jobs that have nothing to do at work everyday but file their nails, read magazines and gossip. I'm not talking about the hundreds of malingerers that pass through our clinic doors everyday seeking sick leaves.

I'm also talking about people like me. Educated people who continued their education to be in the jobs they're in now. Those graduating top of their class, those who made a choice to be doctors, engineers, lawyers, pharamacists, teachers and so on.

Why is going to work such a chore? Why don't we try to enjoy it, try to make a difference. Try to put on a big smile and achieve what this country invested in us to do?

My father in law said something today that really made me sad. We were talking about how tomorrow all the government employees will be coming to the clinics asking for 3 day sick leaves to prolong the Eid holiday till next Sunday, in Kuwaiti: "yshikonha ma3a iljaza" . He reminded us of an old play called "3zoobi ilSalmiya" that was first playing in 1985. One of the characters played by Mohammed AlMansour, was a Kuwaiti doctor who worked in a polyclinic (m9taw9ef). In one of the scenes the doctor states that the only purpose of doctors is to give sick leaves "maratheyat". Yes even back then.

And now 25 years later, this mentally has only worsened to spread to the whole workforce and rubbing off on school going children as well.

Oh Kuwait, Oh Kuwaitis, where will we be in another 25 years?

I just pray to God over and over again to wake up loving my job again.

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3idkom Mbarak

Hello my darlings!

I send you very grouchy eid greetings! Cuz I'm at work. You can't imagine how angry and fed up I am that I had to wake up and come to work today. Please anyone spare me all the you are a doctor serving humanity blah blah. I don't want to hear it. A year ago when I made the choice of going into Family Medicine, remember this post? If i knew I would end up hating my job I really wouldnt have done this. Im pushing along despite the zero job satisfaction I have, because I'm no quitter and sooner or later I'll have a child and what kind of care will it have with both parents being busy doctors. So I'm stuck here. But hoping to God that when I finish my 4 years smoothly I will have a way out of this place, a plan, some other miracle speciality to escape the boredom that is Family Medicine.

You know what bugs me? That FM is a great speciality, its one of the best in most countries. Only in Kuwait it means "dictorat panadol". Studying for FM is a delight, you learn so much medically, psychologically and socially speaking. My program is one of the best if not the best in Kuwait. So your wondering why I hate it this much? Because the practice in Kuwait is agonising. Dealing with hard headed uneducated Kuwaitis who think they know best ALWAYS. On the other hand dealing with expatriates who always walk into the clinic with a false idea that they will be discriminated against because they are not Kuwaiti's and that we will give them the 'bad' medication and that i am hiding the 'good stuff' under my desk! And the only treatment that will work is an injection and if I refuse (because it is unnecessary of course) it means,
A. I am a bad doctor
B. Im hiding the injections for the Kuwaiti's
C. I want all expats to suffer
D. This is all a sick ploy from MOH so that they do not heal quickly and come again to pay 1kd.

You think im joking right?

I think the Kuwaiti patients got off lightly there, dont you? Well here goes, Kuwaiti's think:

A. Im a bad doctor. PERIOD. I don't need to open my mouth for them to think that. Its their preconceived notion before they walk into the main door of the clinic, before they go to the reception, before they are assigned to a doctor, before they see the name, before they see I'm young enough to be their daughter/gran daughter, before I greet them smiling or not......
So2al bs, if I'm so bad intaw laish yayen 3ayal?

B. I must be a bad doctor, wela shimga3dni bil mo9taw9ef? Lo zaina chan kamalt. I have explained FM aka 6eb 3a2ila is a specialty, I am doing my Masters/PhD. But now I have come to terms with the fact that it doesn't matter how many letters I add to my name, I am decrorat m9tw9ef and that's that.

C. Im young. Meaning, I am inexperienced, meaning I will make mistakes. Meaning they have to make sure that the medicine i prescribed suits them. By making sure, they must seek a second opinion, I would take no offense if they were asking another doctor, but no, they prefer asking, their cousin's daughters friend who knows someone in X pharmacy who has anything but a pharmacy degree.

D. I'm a bad doctor if a medication is out of stock. Lena ana khala9ta lena ga3da akhali 7g 'rab3na'

E. I'm a bad doctor because the patient is complaining from side effects that are clearly mentioned inside the drug leaflet. Side effects that I didnt mention because I was too afraid to tell the patients as any family practitioner is taught to do. Because if I tell the patient he might experience a slight cough or headache, the next day the he'll becoming with a splitting headache because of the bad medication i gave him, regardless of the fact if he does have a headache or not. If i explain the side effects, to our health-unaware uneducated population, I risk the patient refusing to take a necessary possibly life saving drug. Allahoma 6awelik ya roo7.

F. I must be a bad doctor if I refuse to order unnecessary blood tests, which the patient demanded a few months back & didnt even think of collecting the results. How dare I ask why they want them? Y3ni laish ba3ad, abi achayek 3ela nafsi. Shitchayek mathalan 3alashan a3aref shino a6leblik? Kilshay, saweli shaaaaaamel, abi kil ilta7aleel ili tsawonha ?!?!??@?@?!@?!@?

G. I must be a bad doctor because I don't automatically check the blood pressure of anyone who walks into my clinic. Checking BP is all i'm good for. And when it turns out to be high more tham once & I advice starting treatment, oh noooo they don't want to get used taking medications.

H. The next point applies to the younger working age group, mainly females.
If they wake up late, or with an itch in their throat, or coughed once, if their child sneezed last night, if she has no maid at home, if she went to a wedding and slept late, if her job is boring, if she feels like going to Avenues for breakfast etc etc
These all qualify that they call in sick, they call ilkhidma almadaniya and come to the clinic 3ela akher 15mins of the working to me to 'print out' their sick leave.
Yes, they want me to print it only.
They don't want me to to heaven forbid 'ASK QUESTIONS', examine them, to give treatment or advice.
So you can only imagine what their reactions are when I refuse. I'll leave to your imaginations.

I could go on you know. But I guess you get the point.

I can only hope and pray that somehow someway, I wake up loving my job again.

That's all I want, to wake up loving my job, the job I spent yeaaaars of my life to reach.

525 Sick Leaves

Since 1st January till today 1 have given 386 sick leaves, with an overall of 525 days.

Without a doubt, those who deserve them are barely 100.

I will write a detailed post soon about this matter. But today I wanted put something out there ...

Every sick leave you take you are being paid to work on that day. If you're not sick your being paid for nothing. Which is 7aram, y3ni bil 3arabi ga3den taklon mal 7aram.


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Mint Candy Apple

Loving it !
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